Thursday, April 18, 2013

Needing to Get Outside


Things have become a bit tougher here in Kansas City, because we cannot get outside and enjoy Spring! I know it is supposed to be here, but the cool weather and rain set backs are killing us. The girls still go outside daily, but it's not enough Shine through Sun, Shine Through!
Motherhood is all about caring, loving, teaching and leading by example. I am outgoing, competitive, organized, and controlling mother who loves to hug, eat and blows up in anger in a bad moment. I imagine I'm not supposed to share that last portion of my mothering skills, but seriously, we all have our limits. As you walk through my life with a running monologue from a 3 year old and a possessive, needy 1 1/2 year old, your bound to have moments you are not proud of. I can only hope that the majority of these mishaps will be overshadowed by how much I love my little girls and how much I care for them. Being a mother and a father is one of the most challenging roles you will ever take on, because for the rest of your life (or at least until they are 18-25) you are responsible for all the of the decisions they make. Mortifying. How do I put forth my best self as much as possible? Praying? Yoga? Breathing? Sighing? Walking away? What will I choose to do today?
Honestly, I generally see my positive nurture coming through my children in their need to please and love everyone, but some days Isabelle is a bit to controlling with her sister and I can only think that it is my responsibility. Andrew and I love our little babes to pieces, but if you ever think of us in your prayers, say a little something for our patience. We can always use help.
So on a lighter not, last night Adelaide woke up 15-20 times for some unknown reason - I feed her, changed her diaper, consoled her and never lost my cool, but still.....Adelaide didn't sleep more than 30 minutes until 3am. I love this little bitty girlie who loves to eat, follow her sister, adores her doggies, enjoys playing alone and is becoming quite the daddy's girl. Adelaide is a special little girl who steals the heart of everyone who meets her. She wants to be her sister's little side kick, but loves time alone with her mommy. She loves to cuddle, but can never stop wiggling. It takes her a few experiences to get used to things, but she knows what to expect from then on. Adelaide loves to watch children her age and already tries to engage in playing with them. I'll be interested to see how this next year with Eloise at home with us and Isabelle away at preschool will go. Just the other day we had a little girl Adelaide's age over to play and Adelaide was petting and trying to tickle her. Very amusing, but I think it is pretty funny that all my girls try to do is be mommies to the next littlest person in the room. They always try and that is very comforting.
Isabelle is constantly trying to teach Adelaide what to do, but I have to reminder her that I am Adelaide's mommy and I need to be in charge of her actions. Isabelle enjoys hugging, pulling Adelaide around, telling her what to do and teaching Adelaide how to behave. Some days with a forceful voice and some days with a kind and nurturing voice, so I think she's definitely my child. She has her good and her bad days.
I love my sweet girls and I only hope that they are picking up on my greatest qualities! Enjoying what this month has given us so far....now come on sunshine!!!!
Love, AKI&A

The Cool Kids Table
Oh, and possibly my favorite reason to be outside next to playtime is so we can eat meals outside!!! Lovely sunshine & no sweeping!

Crazy Girl

There is a free horse ride at our grocery store. We frequent it regularly....

Vacation: Playa del Carmen!!!! A few days to breath!

2 comments:

Lindsay said...

Take a deep breath! You are not alone. You are clearly an amazing mommy. I think the worst mistake mom's make is beating themselves up over the low points - your constant love, nurturing and wonderful parenting will always outshine the moments we're not so proud of. Hope the spring weather warms up for you all soon!

CaraHennessy said...

Kathryn, you are fabulous, and there is no one else I would want to leave my precious Eloise with. I thank God for you. We love you.